Thursday, 26 April 2007

Man!!! Just can't stop...

I've been eating instant noodles every morning for my breakfast... It's not healthy at all but i just can't break the habit.. Anyone help me please... I just need to stop this immediately... Before something nasty happens :)

Wednesday, 25 April 2007

Life's Boring..

Sigh... This is such a boring day indeed, BORING!!! I wish i can take my mother's new car out for a spin again... It's automatic transmission and it's a Perodua Kelisa Special Edition, as you all know it's small... It's a supermini that's why i have the courage to take it out for a spin because it's easy to drive and easy to zip into small spaces, but it's also small inside of course.. And the 3 cylinder engine is superb for a 1 liter engine.. It's so powerful compare to dad's Mercedes E220.. Took it out for a spin before and it's really underpowered... That car is s-l-o-w.. But then the back-up power is strong man!! Anyway i heard that European cars engine handles power differently compared to Asian cars. If you step on the accelerator on a asian car, the power comes immediately while a european car will have some sort of delay.. The power comes in slower.. Like the last time when we test drove a Chevrolet Optra, my eldest bro speed it and the power didn't come immediately.. Lol i still remember the look on the salesman's face when my brother speeds it.. Because the engine is still new and it needs time to settle down.. After we test drove it, there's some burning smell coming out of the engine lol.. But i have to say that the car is excellent, it's so quiet in it and spacious.. Can sleep inside i think... The sound prove is even better than my dad's Merc.. At 1st i sat in dad's merc when we haven't bought it in the 2nd hand car shop and we test drove it and it's so comfortable and quiet, so smooth again.. But now its like nothing special anymore... After that i don't feel that my brother's myvi is comfortable anymore... Already get used to a Mercedes comfort.. So smooth, quiet and comfortable...
Ok run out of topic already... Gotta go now... Buh bye...

Saturday, 21 April 2007

Grandma's funeral..

My grandma passed away peacefully on the 18th of April at 8am "because of heart failure if I'm not mistaken", then the doctors put her in the "Rumah Mayat" in the freezer. After that day, my mum ordered coffin and they brought her to the funeral parlor located in St Joseph Catholic church so people can visit her. It was a nice place because it was fully air conditioned with modern designs and etc, yet the toilet is just located in front of the parlor where the St Joseph and St Tressa students always hang out there and smoke.. They wouldn't know there's people in the parlor coz the sliding door was heavily tinted, it's possible to see out but people can't look in on day time... But it's the other way round at night.. "U know wat i mean"

Anyway, my cousins and uncles from KL and Singapore came to pay their last respect, one of my aunt even drove all the way from Bintulu and it took them 8 hours to reach here... The minute my cousin Sarah went into the parlor to visit my grandma in her coffin, she broke out in tears and her mum auntie Sally also... They even spent a night in the parlor together with aunt Sally, her daughter Sarah, her son Leslie and her son's wife, and uncle Thomas.. They slept in the parlor i think.. Anyway there is a grave just beside the parlor so i think they slept in the parlor LOL!!! Btw they are from my mum's side, aunt Sally is my mum's eldest sis...
On the 20th of April which is yesterday which is grandma's "funeral day", a group of old ladies went into the parlor and gave some prayers which it sounds like some Buddhist prayers, and my cousin Sarah broke out in tears again. After that, they brought her into the church for funeral and all my relatives from dad's side and of course mum's side were present to pay some respect...
After the mass leaded by Father Albert, they brought her body into the hearse, then i was so hurt to see grandma being brought into a hearse so i cried, and this is the 1st time i cried in public in front of my cousins, aunties and uncles... I was crying looking at the back door of a Kia Pregio hearse being closed by the workers as my grandma was in it.. Then my cousin Leslie ask me to start getting into my brother's car and i was the only one crying in the back seat... It's kinda embarrassing though but i just love my grandma so much and i just can't hold back the tears, so i just let the tears out... And the saddest part is, i didn't manage to visit her before 18th of April, i didn't have the chance to hug her and kiss her chicks saying goodbye like we always did in the nursing home, and i felt so sad because i did not manage to say goodbye and tell her that i love her.. =sobbing= :'(

When we are on the way to the grave, i saw Nicole's car and she was smiling talking on the phone and i waved at her, i don't think she know that I'm sobbing LOL... And she message me saying that she's sorry for my lost sending her condolence... Thanks Nicole :) and I felt better after that..
The minute we reach the grave yard where grandpa is buried, the church workers already prepared cements to cement the grave after the coffin is in... When the coffin is on top on the grave, i was asking grandpa for a favor asking him to take a good care of my grandma and don't quarrel that often like they did when i was small... They always quarrel in Bahasa Sarawak because never wanted to learn how to speak English as you know that my grandfather is American/Malaysian Caucasian, and he don't understand mandarin and teochew.. Actually all my cousins from my mum's side is very westernize even though they are chinese and malay, yet all of them can't even understand a single word of mandarin.. And me and my siblings are the only ones among all the cousins which can actually speak mandarin and hockien fluently.. "except for my eldest bro" coz he couldn't speak mandarin... But at least he can speak hockien la... Back to the burying part, before they put the coffin into the grave under the hot blazing sun, Father Albert was there and he gave some prayers and my cousin Lauraine was sobbing beside me.. After that they put grandma's coffin in and we threw some flowers in and the workers put on the concrete and cement it.. then Leslie light some candles and put it there...
There's a sum of money grandma gave us and ask us to spent it after she passed away, so my cousin was thinking of spending it for a dinner at a Chinese restaurant called Hai Pao Wang in Padungan area... I can tell you that the food in that restaurant is yucky... I only enjoyed the mutton and the mixed vegetables.. Oh yea, and the huge fish.. Haha.. And my Malay uncle were there talking crap and criticizing her wife which is my aunt.. He always did that, kinda like him though, just imagine, he is a Malay yet he eat pork and always kiss his dog, he even sleep with his dog everyday together with her wife... And he even celebrates Christmas and none of his children can speak Malay... All English... After the dinner, cousin Sarah hugged me saying goodbye coz she will be goin back to singapore today... And that's it... My mum's family side seldom get together like that haha... Unless there is a funeral or something.. Because most of them is not in Kuching...
Well, that's all about grandma's funeral... I already run out of topic to talk about so, buh bye...

Tuesday, 17 April 2007

Such a boring day!

This is such a boring day... Wish someone can ask me out by now... But not at night please... Gotta take care of my grandma... Hahaha...
Just visited the TopGear web and found out that Perodua MyVi had already been revealed by Richard Hammond (a.k.a. Hamster) and he even test droved it... Yet, all the comments he gave are all on the positive side, he even liked the looks of the car and even said that it looks better than the Toyota and Daihatsu version, but of course there's some negativity... Anyway, none of the car in this world is perfect. In fact, nothing in this world is perfect. Right? Haha... See, even Simon Cowel said Rolls Royce Phantom sucks and a Maybach from Mercedes is waaaay better... But in my opinion, i think both is a great car... MyVi is a great car though, It's spacious yet quite nice looking... But of course Perodua don't do all the designing and N-CAP crash test thingy by themself, our Malaysian car company doesn't have the budget to do that. Just imagine, you have to crash a lot of units just in order to examine the safety of the car and etc.. So what did Perodua did is: Let Toyota and Daihatsu do all the crashing job and safety features, after that, we take the body and redesign it in our own style, pump in our own features and etc... Anyway, Perodua did gave some ideas to Toyota and Daihatsu on the car. So, it's not 100% a Toyota and Daihatsu car... Hehehe... By the way, just to let you know the Toyota version is called Passo and the Daihatsu version is called Sirion or Boon... I don't really like the Daihatsu version, but i prefer the Toyota and Daihatsu's interior the most (not the exterior)... Our version interior looks great too but i just prefer those two japenese version hehehe... And i don't like Myvi special edition... So "robotic like" ... But the interior is better than the old one la... Leather seats again...
Ok lah... Dunno what to talk about anymore... Gotta let my mum surf the net now...
Happy reading!!! :)

Saturday, 7 April 2007

Zheng Fu By Siti Nurhaliza...






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A very sad day (part 2)

The doctors in SGH gave my grandma another few more days to live, because my uncle from the UK wanted to see her alive before she leave, because he only can arrive on Tuesday and that's the fastest from UK to Kuching... She's in a lot of pain as we can tell by her looks, her facial expression, yet the stench from her rotten leg is getting more and more strong and the smell seems to be following me home, i hardly can have my daily meals as the smell is in my nose... Digging my nose, sniffing air fresheners, soaps, shampoos, you name it, I've tried and it doesn't work...
My parents called Father Albert to give her some blessings yesterday, when me and my eldest bro was there, he came and gave her blessing.. And my grandma was blank while blessing wondering who is the Caucasian man holding a book and saying all those. It kinda hurt me deep inside seeing her blank and in pain all day long like that.. Before she got this, she already can't really speak and she couldn't even sit upright... But she wasn't really in pain before, unlike now, her life now is depending on the machine, the machine helps her to breath... Yet she's in pain all day long yet she can't even make noise or move her body.. So can you imagine that how torture she was?
I hope god can redeem her and take her to a better place where she can meet god and my grandfather, i guess its just time to leave her painful body.. I just hate to see her in pain, it really kills me inside...

Friday, 6 April 2007

A very sad day

Sighs... Today is a very sad day for me and my family... My grandmother was admitted to the hospital on April 3rd which is a Monday, and the doctor said that her rotten left leg need to chop off, and after 2 days which is today, they say she only have 24 hours more to live, so they didn't chop off her leg... And now is already less than 24 hours... And when me and my brother went to SGH to see her, my mum told me and my brother that my grandma only have 24 hours to live, then i was really hurt to hear that and felt like crying, then i just hold my tears from rolling down my cheeks trying to hide my sadness.. Then when we we're in the car on the way to tell my dad about it in Sarawak Club where he always play tennis there every evening, the minute my mum enter the car, she cried immediately. She said she needed a place to cry, and in the car is the perfect spot. Then, i was very sad so i cried silently on the back seat while on the way to Sarawak club to tell my dad about it... And the minute i reach home, the minute i enter my bedroom, i sobbed badly letting my feelings out, when i was having a shower, i sobbed badly again... After that, i felt so much better...
After all that, we went to the hospital to see her again after we had our dinner, luckily i manage to see her awake this time and she was looking at me, i was holding her hand, which i always did when i was a kid.. Thinking of all those sweet memories i had with her.. Because she's the one who raised me when i was a toddler, yet, i'm very close to her... That's why it hurts so bad to see her that way... And my mum also prepared a funeral just now... Well i guess that's life, no one in this world can live forever, everyone just had to face this one day.. Anyway she can be happier in heaven and yet she can be closer to god and be with my grandfather... I just hope i can see her again tomorrow...
Well, its kinda late now and i need to go to bed..

P.S: I love you with all my heart grandma, thanks for everything that you have done for me, you are the best... Although we will be loosing you soon but your memories will always remain in us... May god bless you..

Love = Your grandson, Sean Poh...