Not Again Part 2

Sighs... Why is my life so miserable these few days? Hmm just got invited from a friend for a drink and i rejected it cause i had a lot of things to do yet i need to sleep early, and he doesn't sound happy.. Well i wish i can hang out with him but i really can't.. Unless I'll be dead tomorrow... Sighs Felt so guilty about it...
Anyway i wish i didn't blog about "Making Fun On Other Religions" because i think i did hurt the others.. Well i guess so.. Unless they are not a sensitive freak like me!!! I tought they wouldn't open my blog but who knows? I think now my friends will look at me differently from now on... How i wish that didn't happen and how i wish i could turn back the time and think before i do anything.. Sighss!!! I wish there's a memory remover device like the one in Man In Black which delete the last thing you remembered and use it on me... So i can forget about everything and proceed on...

I think i really need a vacation to start all over when I'm back... But... I can't afford to go travelling and i need my money to get a new phone...
Well, i just think that I'm just having a bad day that's all, or in other words, "bad month", or "unlucky month"... I wish things didn't go this way..

Anyway i think I'm the prob, I used to think that I'm very kind, I'm smart, I'm thin, I'm special and etc, I'm generous, everyone liked me and so on... but you're not sean!!!!, you are not special, you are not smart, and you are not even kind at all!!! I can tell that a lot of your friends didn't like you at all, they just pretend to fake a smile at you so you can have that pleasant feeling to be around... Like the guy who always ask you for lunch for instance, I don't think he really liked you either!!! Why they didn't like you? Cause you're nasty and you're an idiot who always think about yourself instead of others, and you're a sensitive freak who can't take a joke, and you are a difficult person to live with!!! And you also used to criticize on a friend of your that he's annoying, stupid, and etc, and you also used to criticize on other people's singing talent and see what you turn out to be? it stroke back at you sean!!! Anyway i guess you didn't change a bit since primary school, you are still the same old idiot that everyone hates in class!!! And what about all your assignments? When are you gonna finish it? Are you gonna be the same old douchbag who never wanna finish you homework? As a concious, i say this is for your own good!!!

I did post about criticizing on others which titled: "Speak No Evil, It'll Strike Back". It's really true that we shouldn't criticize and make fun of others cause now it all stroke back at me and i feel so fucked up and miserable... If this continues, i think I'll be in the mental hospital...

Well, i guess i just gotta leave the past behind and forget about it... Wonder what it's like tomorrow... I just hope it will be a better and happier tommorow for me...